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February 24, 2017

Okay, so I sent out a query to an agent this morning for One-Match Fire. My inertia is broken. You have to be sanguine about these things, even though you know the odds are astronomically not in your favor. But you have to begin somewhere.

Now that it’s done, I suppose it will be easier for me to begin sending out more queries for the novel. Sometimes this part of the effort seems harder than the actual creative writing.


I’m still reading White-Jacket. It’s a long voyage and the ship is now at anchor in Rio de Janeiro where the sailors are chafing at getting too little and too much shore leave. Melville is writing a humorous tale, but it is clear that just below the surface he is railing about the injustices and inhumanity of the Navy in those days. In fact, when the novel was published, a copy was given to each member of Congress and, I’ve read, it was instrumental in getting flogging banned as a punishment aboard U.S. ships. I’m enjoying every word, but I’ll be glad when I’ve finished the novel and I can move from the 19th Century and into something more contemporary.


I crossed the 200-mile mark in my running two days ago. With the cold weather, I’ve done most of those miles on treadmills. But in the unseasonably warm days of late, I’ve been going outside for my miles. The transition from treadmill to pavement has been rough on my poor legs and lungs. The treadmill presents a continuous pace on a forgiving surface. The pavement, not so much. I constantly find myself going too “fast” to sustain, and my legs — especially my quadriceps — ache afterward. I don’t remember this much trouble in past years. Not sure why that is.


I’m making some progress with the story I’m now calling “Stargazing and Eavesdropping.” A couple more scenes and I should have the first draft finished. Still no news on the status of the various stories I have out in submission.


post-marathon thoughts

November 14, 2016

Despite my early fears, race day turned out to have ideal running weather. Partly sunny with highs in the 50s. There were some wind gusts in unexpected places, but overall, for a race this distance, I don’t think the conditions could have been much better.

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Somewhere around mile 17, the volunteers were handing out wet green sponges, which were great for wiping the crusted salt from my face. I confess that some small part of me wanted to keep the sponge as a memento (mori) of the run. I could have squeezed it dry and stuffed into my pants I suppose. But it would have been an oddball souvenir, and I couldn’t picture it sitting on a shelf somewhere, inviting conversation. So I tossed it to the ground. The fact that I saw green sponges on the ground for the next five miles suggests to me that others may have had similar thoughts. They hung onto the sponge until they, too, realized what a silly souvenir it would be.

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Yes, I asked at every water station if they had Bud Light, and, no, they never did. A few volunteers chuckled at my comment, but I suspect that English was not the first language for many of these kind souls — and many were just kids — so I guess my Midwestern humor fell as flat as day-old beer.

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There was no chocolate milk at the after party, but there wasn’t an after party either. We had a mile-long walk out of Central Park, and they gave us a recovery bag with some drinks in it. My son-in-law did have two bottles of chocolate milk waiting for me though when he met us. What a great man he is!

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There were two (maybe three — I was delirious) turns on the course where the outer edge was lined with hundreds of bales of straw. What was that all about? Surely no runner, not even an elite, would be hurtling around the turn (and they were wide, broad turns on major streets) at such a speed that a cushion would be needed in case of a wipe out. Perhaps they were there to keep the spectators from spilling onto the course. If so, why there and not at the places where they actually were spilling onto the course?

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I felt like a criminal to my own values as I tossed my empty GU packets to the ground. Normally, I suck down the GU and then fold the sticky little foil packet into a manageable shape to carry with me until the next water station where I throw it in the trash can waiting there. My belief is that if you can carry it in, you can carry it out. Not so on this run. I ate the GU (which I do think helps me) and then tossed the packet to the ground to join the thousands of others already there. It happened that our hotel was a block across the course (about mile 7) from my daughter’s apartment, so I crossed it several times in the days after the run. I was impressed with how cleaned up the course was. There are many unsung heroes in these endeavors.

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The pains in my legs are mostly gone now. I’ll get some random bursts or twinges, generally when I’m taking a turn or stepping off a curb, but I can navigate stairs almost painlessly now, and I’m even thinking of trying out a run. Unfortunately, the cold I had been fighting since before the marathon finally arrived full blown in my head a few days later (making the flight home a torment), so I think I should rest my body a bit longer.

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And I’m a little resentful about the cold. I can’t tell how much of my fog is due to marathon fatigue and how much is due to the cold (and medicine). I’d like to feel the marathon fatigue in its purity just to have the full experience.

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Just about everything that went wrong on the run — the IT bands, the hips, the quads, the fatigue — is correctable. A fellow could train smarter, train harder, train longer, and then run a better marathon next time. If a fellow were thinking of ever doing such a thing again, that is.

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I am going to enter the lottery for the NYC 2017 Marathon as soon as it opens!

TCS New York City Marathon 2016 recap

November 9, 2016


I’ve been waiting since March (when I learned I got into the marathon) for this, and now I find myself surprisingly short of words. I really need to give an account before the memories slip away, so here goes.

We arrived in New York on Friday evening, too late to do much of anything other than to see my daughter, Rachel, and son-in-law, Travis, and grandson, Kenneth. They met us at our hotel (just a few blocks from their apartment) with some dinner, and since I was presumably still fueling for the big run on Sunday, I ate it with enthusiasm. Then it was pretty much time to fall into bed and attempt to rest/sleep (for the big run on Sunday).

On Saturday morning we met at a nearby bagel shop (still miss my Kansas City bagels) just by the subway stop and were soon hurtling underground toward the expo. Big (and most small) runs have expos where you pick up your race bib and shirt (or whatever the giveaway is) and then tour dozens of booths set up by vendors, generally hawking running products or services. I had all of the gear I needed, but I did come across some chocolate mint GU (the energy gel I use) that I haven’t been able to find in the Midwest for years. I bought ten packets of the stuff. I also accosted the poor guys at the Hoka booth and talked them into giving me a free shirt. I run in Hoka shoes (though I was wearing black dress shoes at the expo since my running shoes don’t provide support but rather cushioning). I’ve been wanting a Hoka shirt for a long time, but the few times I ever saw a Hoka booth at the various expos, they never had shirts. This time they did, so I got one finally. I also wanted to price out a finisher hoodie since I wear a hoodie nearly constantly at work and play, and one that makes clear to the world that I ran the New York City Marathon is one I intended to wear (assuming I did finish). I  only intended to buy the hoodie after the race, just in case. I had heard comments about the Kansas City Marathon expo being “small” and that amazed me since it is held in a convention center with scores of vendors and thousands of people. But the NYC Marathon expo made it clear why people had said that. It was huge. Hundreds of vendors and thousands and thousands of people. There were interactive stations, photo ops, celebrities, and all kinds of stuff that could have meant a full morning there had not something come up. Grandson Kenneth was with us and was begging to sample every edible or drinkable giveaway. Down it all went, and then soon, up it all came. We had no change of clothes (or even a clean stroller) for him, so our visit to the expo was cut short. I regret not getting the full experience, but I don’t think the people at the expo would have appreciated the boy’s new fragrance. (This was not a problem in the subway however.)

Saturday evening included a pasta dinner at my daughter’s apartment followed by an early bedtime. And then, as these things happen, Sunday morning came.

I was awake long before dawn (even longer given the time change) and took my time to brush and floss and shower and fuss and fret and start putting on my running clothes. The only newish thing about my kit was the blue shirt you see above, and I had run in it a few time already, having previously confirmed that it was ideal. My shoes were also newish, with less than twenty miles on them, but that’s, of course, intentional. And they’re the brand and model I have run in for years, so there were no surprises there. Aside from that, everything was standard, though I did have a long-sleeved cotton throwaway shirt and my red throwaway jacket (that I’ve had for years and just could never manage to throw away).

I met Rachel at the subway stop betwixt her apartment and our hotel and we proceeded underground to get ourselves to the Staten Island Ferry that would take us to the start. This part worked smoothly. The ferry station was packed when we got there, but we were able to get on the first ferry available (many had already come and gone that morning). The ride to Staten Island was swift and smooth. And it was at this point that the smoothness ended. We had to wait an hour and a half for the bus to take us to the Athletes Village. I didn’t really know any better since this was my first time to this marathon, but Rachel kept assuring me we should have been moving more quickly. The bus ride itself apparently took longer than it should have as well. We were at a standstill at several places, the last being at the top of the hill above the Athletes Village. Then the bus began moving and went down the hill, passing what I came to learn later was the security checkpoint.

Everyone involved in conducting this marathon was warm and welcoming, including the thousands of police, many in full riot gear. I understood the need for security, and I was pleased that it was something that was functioning smoothly. But apparently the delays with the busses meant that the intended security check at the top of the hill was bypassed. We were merely wanded as we each stepped off the bus. The wands were chirping vigorously, and I know the eight foil packets of GU pinned to my waistband with safety pins made the wand chirp in my case, but aside from that all I had were some candy bars in the pockets of my throwaway jacket and a general numbness in my soul.

I had predicted my finish time when I had entered the lottery for this run, and this placed me in a wave behind Rachel. But we intended to run together, and with 50,000+ runners, meeting up somewhere on the course was impossible. She could have stepped back to my wave — this is allowed — but she suggested instead that I sneak into her wave. My wave would run on the lower deck of the Verrazano-Narrows Bridge while hers would run on the upper deck. Since I was wearing the long-sleeved throwaway shirt and the red jacket, my bib was hidden and the gatekeepers couldn’t see by its color that I was attempting to enter the “wrong” wave corral. (I finally did throw away my throwaway jacket, tossing it into one of the dozens of bins waiting for the discarded clothing in the Village. I hadn’t needed it at all aside from using it to carry my candy bars.) By this time, with the delay of the busses and whatever else was going on, no one cared. I waltzed right in un-accosted. Then it was a simple matter of waiting for a half hour or so for our mass of humanity to be walked onto the bridge ramp and up to the start line.

The first mile of this run is uphill, getting to the halfway point of the bridge. It’s also the highest point of the whole race. There was the usual speechifying at the start, which must have been repeated several times before us and likely several times after, and then the anthem was sung. An actual cannon was fired to announce the start, and we were underway. Shoulder to shoulder. I had started my watch to have it find some satellites, and I was surprised that it was not finding them. Atop that bridge, up in the air like I was, I thought I would instantly get a signal. We were shuffling closer to the starting mats, and I wanted to press the go button simultaneous to crossing the start. But it all came together and I was able to start my watch as I crossed the mat. And we were off.

We ran a few hundred feet, and then we fell to walking. As packed as the bridge was, with the mile-long climb before us, running was not much faster than walking at that point. And we wanted to conserve our energy for the long, long miles ahead of us. We alternated running and walking, Rachel taking selfies and posting them on the fly. But when we crested the bridge, we began running continuously. We were part of a huge, colorful mass of people, and yet as we descended the bridge I saw more masses of colorful runners approaching us from two other directions. These were the other waves, the folks running on the lower deck of the bridge and routed different ways to relieve congestion right at the start. But it wouldn’t be long before we would all merge.

After leaving the first borough (Staten Island), we entered Brooklyn and soon were on 4th Avenue. It seemed like every nation on the planet was represented in this run. Many runners had their nationality printed on their shirts. Some I could figure out by the language they spoke (Italian being the easiest for me to pick out). Mostly people were passing me, but I was passing others. We just poked along, walking when we had to, but running mostly. We would stay on 4th Avenue for about eight miles, passing within two blocks of Rachel’s apartment (and our hotel). Travis and Kenneth and my wife, Libby, were supposed to meet us somewhere around mile seven, but I didn’t need to watch for them. Travis was tracking us and Libby was tracking my phone (in my secret waistband pocket), so they knew when we were coming. Plus, I was wearing that colorful blue shirt. (I had shed my long-sleeved shirt around mile five, courteously draping it on a barrier rather than throw it down in the street as hundreds of others had.) And I wasn’t moving fast, so I wasn’t going to zip past unnoticed.

They did spot us, and we pulled over for some hugs of encouragement and a few photos. Travis was carrying gummy chews, and while I never found much benefit from them, I also never really tried them much, so I nibbled on a few at Rachel’s encouragement. (This was her tenth marathon, which is a vague goal I have.) But then it was onward.


It seemed as though at every other block, someone called out to Rachel. She’s part of a running club in Brooklyn, and they are a tight group. More hugs and, in my case, introductions. A few photos. And then onward.

I was not having a good run. I was walking more than I had hoped, but the inescapable fact is that I had not trained sufficiently for this. I had told myself back in March that you don’t go to the New York Marathon without being at your peak, and then I let myself down. But that was in the past at this point. I was pounding the streets with whatever training I had in my lungs and muscles and mind. My goal had never been to set a personal record — this course is notoriously tough for that — but merely to finish and “have fun.” We eventually made it through Brooklyn and entered Queens. The crowds were unflagging. Plenty of people lining the roads and in some cases people in the road, causing bottle necks. I understand their excitement though. I’m told that this city loves its marathon, and that certainly seemed to be the case.

At about mile ten, I got a visit from an old friend. The IT bands at my knees started hurting. This is what plagued me at my first marathon in Portland three years ago, but after that, the problem had gone away, so I thought I was free of it. Not so. The pain wasn’t nearly as bad as in Portland, but it was present with each stride, and we weren’t even half way. I was carrying eight ibuprofen with me and had taken three earlier that morning. So I swallowed two of them and pushed on. I also got Gatorade and water at each of the stations. It’s easy to get dehydrated without knowing it on a big run. Rachel was carrying a water bottle, and had there not been water stations just about every mile, I might have done so as well. I had seen photos of the water station volunteers in the months running up to the marathon, and they were always wearing ponchos. I assumed that those photos were taken on a rainy day, but that wasn’t the case. There was water (and Gatorade) everywhere. On the ground and on the volunteers. Also on the ground were thousands and thousands of discarded cups. Now let’s say that 30,000 runners had already passed through by the time I was shuffling past any given water station. That means 60,000 feet had crushed the paper cups in the water. They had turned into a gray slurry in some places that meant careful attention to footwork. What a mess, but I also thought that I should probably volunteer to work a water station at some run just to do my part.

The miles went on. We finally left Queens by crossing the Queensboro Bridge. This is an odd part of the course. It’s on the lower deck, so you can’t seen the sky, and spectators are not allowed on it. So for the first time in the whole run — we were at about mile 15 at this point — we didn’t have cheering. I’d read that this can be unnerving, and since it’s a bridge, it’s also uphill half of the way. We were walking much more by then and though we did stab at a few hundred feet of running up the bridge, we mostly walked it. Significantly, my watch lost the satellite signal under this bridge and it switched to elapsed time mode rather than pace. I didn’t realize this for a long while and assumed my 48-minute miles were just caused by the tall building interrupting the satellite signals. As my “miles” got progressively slower, I finally understood what had happened but I was reluctant to try changing the mode on the watch since I didn’t want to accidentally delete the run or something. I should probably look into that.

Coming off the Queensboro Bridge into Manhattan is supposed to be a fantastic moment for every runner. This is where you meet the Wall of Sound. The crowds are back at this point and are noted for the vigor of their cheering. That wasn’t the case for me. Yes, there were crowds, and they were cheering, but they had evidently thinned by the time my pokey legs had gotten me this far on the course (about mile 16). I’ve said here before that crowd encouragement really doesn’t do much for me, especially when they say things that just aren’t true. (“You look great!” or “You got this!” or “You’re nearly done.”) Travis was waiting to meet us at about mile 17 as we were embarking on a nearly four-mile trek up 1st Avenue. He had more chewy candy as well as a phone charger for Rachel. He also had some long-sleeved shirts for each of us, which was great since we were into the afternoon, and the partly sunny day had become partly cloudy. Plus there were sudden gusts of winds all of the time. I was grateful for a few moments of rest, but we still had a long way to go, so once again we were running.

At about mile 19.5 we crossed the bridge into the Bronx. The course runs less than two miles in this borough, but it counts. The crowds were very sparse here, and we went whole blocks without seeing anyone on the sidelines. That was fine with me. I was deep into pain and delirium by then, literally experiencing tunnel vision some of the time. At mile 21 we left the Bronx crossing what several hand-lettered signs called the “Last Damn Bridge.” Then we were back in Manhattan. This is a residential area mostly, and the finest brownstones of the whole marathon were waiting for us in Harlem. We were on 5th Avenue here, and this was a three-mile continuous uphill stretch. The conventional wisdom is that a marathon actually begins at mile twenty, and that’s about where this long hill began too. It’s a mild incline, but it feels endless. My knees were hurting, my hips were hurting, and my quads were hurting. Each transition from running to walking and walking to running freshened the pain for a few strides. And I had paid a lot of money for this privilege.

At mile 23 Travis was again waiting for us. He took the photo below, and we look surprisingly fresh and capable. I can’t speak for Rachel, but I was totally spent. (It may even be possible that since Rachel knew where Travis was going to be, we would begin running a block or so before that point so it appeared that we were, you know, running here in the end stretch. Then, after another block or so, once we were out of his sight, we would walk again. Possibly.)


Not long after mile 23 we entered Central Park and began the twothree-mile end run. There are rolling hills in here, and though there is more descent than ascent (most of the ascent already completed on 5th Avenue) we were still walking. Twilight was falling and I knew I would be crossing the finish line in the dark. But I would be crossing that finish line!

Travis met us one more time at about mile 25.5 and we handed off our long-sleeved shirts so we could cross the finish with our bibs showing. Not only would that allow the photographers to identify us, but it would allow spotters to pull out any bandits — people running the race without paying the fee and wearing a bib. It’s a thing.

The combination of the falling darkness and my recurring tunnel vision meant that I didn’t really experience the Central Park portion of the run as I had hoped. It was a slog and a grind by this point. There were still plenty of spectators cheering, though as we approached the finish arch, the bleachers beside it were empty. I did not care.


I ran it in. It was not pretty (as the expensive-and-I-will-not-be-buying finish photo shows), but I gave it all of the energy I still had in me. I crossed the mat, turned off my watch (which had been giving me a low battery message for about ten miles) and then staggered toward the volunteers who were kindly hanging medals on our necks.

My right knee spasmed one more time and I must have staggered because a volunteer hurried over to me to see if I needed help. I walked it off, but he encouraged me to visit the medical tent (far ahead) to “have it looked at.” I was then handed my recovery bag, which included water, Gatorade, a recovery drink that tasted like incense, an apple, and a small bag of pretzels that I devoured. All along this mile-long exit chute were people sitting in chairs high over the crowd. They were apparently there to watch for runners in distress. Even in the gathering dark these stations were staffed. I paid for that privilege too.


I had selected the poncho option (rather than checking a bag that might have had a warm jacket waiting in it). Somewhere ahead my poncho was waiting. Folks, this is a glorious garment! It is made of a wind-proof material that is fleece lined and reaches below my knees hips. It also has a hood. And rather than sleeves, it had two pouches up by the shoulders where you tucked in your hands across your chest, to stay warm. I was greeted by a volunteer who lovingly wrapped it around me and raised the hood. I was certainly not the last finisher. There were hundreds of people around me, wrapped in these blue ponchos, staggering slowly toward the last few feet of our day. I think it was at that moment that I really felt part of the event most. Before that it was just me against the miles. But among these exhausted and elated people, I was one of them.

There was a family meet up area (not-very) near Columbus Circle, and Travis was there, waiting for us. I wasn’t moving fast, but I managed to follow not far behind him as he lead us to a Chipotle where I managed to eat most of a burrito.

I remember a cab ride back to my hotel in Brooklyn. And while I tossed and turned with aching legs, I did not have any wake-the-dead leg cramps during the night. I walked as much as I could in the following days, and I’ll probably lace up for a run in a week or two.

And now it’s time to figure out where my new horizon will be.


November 7, 2016

that is all.

seems like there is something I’m supposed to do today

November 6, 2016

I’m sure it will come to me.

a bit distracted

November 4, 2016

So I’m a bit distracted about the thing on Sunday. It’s pretty much been my horizon since March, and now it’s two days away. Well or ill, it will be finished by Sunday evening. (Likely I’ll be crossing the finish line in the dark — I’ve never done that before.)

And then I must find some new horizon to stumble toward. Probably wrasslin’ with the One-Match Fire manuscript and finding my way into new stories not part of that universe. I’ll be a train wreck; you won’t be able to avert your gaze!

change of plans

November 2, 2016

So, I have this thing on Sunday, and I am suitably, obsessively anxious about it. There is the lead up, and there is the aftermath. And there is the thing itself. That’s the part that has me the most worried.

I’ve been watching the weather forecast for weeks — as far back as the long-range forecast began. For Sunday in this little town the weather doesn’t look ideal. Unless it will be. Maybe. The earliest forecast I saw was a high for the day of 48 degrees. That’s a little brisk for wearing skimpy plastic clothing for long hours. The closer the day came, the more reliable I thought the weather forecast could be. And so earlier in the week it had changed to a high of 46 degrees and a chance of rain. Less ideal. The rain chance seemed to be for the afternoon, which would normally be fine except that my wave begins at 11:00. Wet is not so bad. Wet and cold is.

There are, of course, ways to deal with these kinds of challenges. I have some throw-away gear that I’ll pack and bring with me to the start to keep warm and dry-ish. The difficulty is in deciding when to throw away the jacket and then the extra shirt and then maybe the knit cap and then finally the gloves. How long to carry the extra weight traded with how soon to feel cold and wet? In my running experience, most of the anguish is inside my head. I am aware of the weather outside of my body, but I don’t much care about it. Still.

The latest forecast I saw bumped the high into the fifties and removed the rain. (Of course it depends on which weather service I looked at.) I am cautiously less anxious now. Still.

And then Monday evening, as I am standing, my left knee suddenly buckles with deep pain. Where did this come from? I had no injury. No strain on the weight machine. My last run was good and didn’t offer any knee problems. I hadn’t been on my feet any more than normal that day. I think it is just a caprice of the running gods, to keep me humble (they should know I don’t need any help with that!) and give me something fresh to be anxious about.

I’ve been cautious, and while there are occasional twinges in my knee (when I am standing, oddly), the deep pain has not returned. I think the “problem” is half actual problem and half me focusing too much on it. When I begin my runs, I will sometimes get a pain in a lower joint that I’m certain means I need to turn around and limp home. But I always manage to run through it, and by the end of the run, I often can’t even recall which ankle it was that hurt. I’m hoping the same will be the case with this unbidden knee pain. I’ll be able to run through it.

Update 04NOV16 – Couple of things. The weather report has improved for Sunday. Sunny and a high of 55. Just about ideal for running, though in the concrete canyons of NYC, I suppose it will be cooler in the shadows. Also, I remembered that I had an unfilled second prescription for a cortico-steroid from last summer. When I took it then (for a muscle ache), I found that my knees and ankles felt great. (Didn’t do anything for the muscle ache though.) So when my left knee started acting up on Monday, I remembered that and had the second prescription filled. I’m three days into the regimen, and my knees feel great again. I should do this for every marathon, though I don’t suppose any doctor would knowingly do this for me.