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another trip to the woods

July 3, 2018

When left unsupervised, I sometimes indulge in choices that I might not make when overseen. Because my wife was in St. Louis to visit our son and daughter-in-law and would be gone through most of the weekend, I made a dash out to my woods on Saturday.

The small town near my little bit of forest on the edge of the Missouri Ozarks had posted on its Facebook page last week that power would be restored soon and that residents were responsible for cleaning up fallen branches on their own property. From this I discerned with my keen and penetrating intellect that there must have been a wicked storm down there.

My forest is nearly completely native plants. Each tree competes with its neighbors for the same resources, and because nature is red in tooth and claw, the weak don’t survive. Thus I suspected that my forest would have weathered the weather well enuf, any culling having been done already.

But I had introduced a non-native factor to the equation: my little cabin. While a tree may fall in the forest when no one is around to hear it (a theme in one of my unpublished One-Match Fire stories, by the way), a tree that falls across the road, or worse, onto the cabin was something I would want to know about. Thus the rationale for my day trip.

About a quarter of the way into my 100+ mile trip to the cabin I realized that I had left the gasoline can at home. With that went my ambition to use my industrial strength weed whacker and my chainsaw to do some long-overdue clearing and general tidying. Unfortunately, if a tree had fallen across the road or onto my cabin, I would have been without the resources to deal with it. (Not really. I could have gone into town and bought another gas can and gasoline. I keep the chain saw, the weed whacker, and the fuel additives in the cabin.)

When I drove into the trees beyond my neighbor’s meadow, the tree line marking the change in property, the first thing I came upon were some branches on the ground in the road. They were small enuf for me to pick up and toss out of the way easily, but I worried that they were the harbinger of more. So I peered ahead, as watchful for more tree fall as I ever am for panicked wildlife.

Happily, I saw no more, though there were plenty of low, live branches that needed trimming, as the antenna and roof of my truck reminded me. No culling of those. Nor was the cabin assaulted. In fact, there was very little tree litter in the open area around the cabin. My fears were unfounded (and relieved).

And so this left me with an entire day with no agenda. I did my usual arrival steps: I carried the sprung mouse trap with its very desiccated mouse to the fire ring for eventual burnt sacrifice. I added seed to the bird feeder. I put several handfuls* of peanuts (unsalted, of course) on the log where the wood rat lives. I checked the phoebe nest on the side of the cabin (empty). I put an asterisk on the calendar to mark my visit. And I began an entry for the visit in the journal I keep (which is an important plot feature in one of my published One-Match Fire stories). Then I carried a chair onto the porch and sat for a long while to take deep breaths and listen to the forest.

The heat index for the day was 100+ degrees, so I didn’t fancy a hike in the forest and part of me was glad I had forgotten the gas can so I wouldn’t have to use the hot, heavy, noisy machines to make more work for myself. (Chainsawing really is a winter sport.) I did eventually use one of the grass whips to knock back some of the growth in the open area betwixt the cabin and the lake, though that eventually required me to work in the sun, so I was only partially successful in this. I found the fern you see in the photo above in this area. It is doing remarkably well given that it’s on the drier, hotter south-facing slope. The better ferns are across the lake on the hillside that doesn’t get as much direct sunlight.

I was able to confirm that three of the dozen possum haw plants I had set down along the edge of this open area have survived. Two I would even say are thriving. I have this ambition to surround the cabin with red, either the red flowers of the buckeye trees I’ve planted or the red berries of the possum haw. I’d even like to plant a red dogwood near the cabin. My original idea was that this would attract hummingbirds who would then entertain us, but that would only happen in the spring. So mostly I’m just after the new color in the landscape. The soil where I planted the possum haws isn’t very good, so the fact that three have survived warms my black and shriveled heart.

Speaking of my black and shriveled heart, I also moved my grass-killing tarp in the gravel near the fire ring. I have a large graveled area between the cabin and the fire ring, and I want to keep it that way to reduce fire hazard. Since this is just uphill from my lake, I don’t want to use herbicides in the area. Instead I’ve spread a tarp over sections of the gravel to starve the upstart plants of sunlight. After a few weeks or a month, I remove the tarp, rake away the chaff, then lay down the tarp over another area. It’s a large tarp, probably 10 x 12 feet, and I fold it as needed to accommodate the space I’m attacking. This time, I had the tarp opened to its full magnificence. Since it is growing season, the effects should happen within a few weeks. (Wherever the tarp is at the end of fall is where it will likely remain all winter since the plants aren’t as actively growing beneath it then and so can withstand the lack of sunlight longer before succumbing.) A blogger friend (who uses Blogspot) responded to my question in a comment (the one that posted that I mentioned yesterday) that she has been told to use straight vinegar on any upstart weeds or grasses in her gravel. I intend to try that. I wonder if that scent might keep the critters away from the cabin so they’ll stop “eating” it too.

Even this modest amount of effort was wearing me down, and I had finished the entire bottle of iced tea (unsweetened, of course) that I had intended to reserve for my lunch. I still had plenty of water on hand, but the exertion itself seemed beyond reasonable in the heat.

And so I finally talked myself into doing something that I had flirted with for a couple of years. I decided to take a dip in my lake.

The lake has been around longer than the cabin, and my wife and I have spent many glorious hours floating and swimming in the tea-colored water. But in recent years we haven’t, and I don’t think I’d been in at all in the last two years. Great mats of bright green algae had floated in it lately, and though I think it is the blue-green algae that is more potentially dangerous, I still feared brain-eating amoebas. On this day, there were no algae mats at all. In fact, I hadn’t seen any since last summer, and maybe the “threat” is in its downward cycle.

The water wasn’t tea colored this day either. It was a muddy brown, which makes sense given the storm earlier in the week. A lot of debris gets washed into the lake after a storm, lots of nutrients for the fish and other wild things that live there. The sun was high, the heat was intense, the lake was beckoning, and I was finally ready to get in except for one thing: I didn’t bring a swimsuit.

I also didn’t bring the hard soled water shoes I wear in the lake. The bottom is rocky, even with all of the silt that has accumulated, and getting to and from the water is a rough road too. So I was without these two essentials. But as many of you know, several of my One-Match Fire stories involve skinny dipping, and it’s even possible that I’ve done this deed before. That left doing something about my feet. I hadn’t brought a second pair of shoes, but I do keep an old pair of Crocs at the cabin. (They’re easy to slip on in the middle of the night should I need to get up for some reason and go outside.) I figured as long as I didn’t try to do any actual swimming, the Crocs would probably work. So as I marched down the hill toward the lake, I was dressed in my T-shirt (so my skin didn’t burn), my underwear (I would drive home commando), and the Crocs. I had also put on a cap to shade my eyes. (I left my glasses in the cabin.) (If I’ve ever skinny dipped in the purest sense, it would have been under moonlight, which I’m not admitting.)

The lake was nearly at full pool, and I had to wade through a lot of tall grass that I hadn’t cut down with the grass whip to get to the water. Crocs don’t provide a lot of lateral support, and Ozark hillsides provide a lot of lateral support challenges. Fortunately, I made it  to the water’s edge alive and upright and all that remained was to wade in.

The lake bottom here slopes gradually for about four feet and then begins a more precipitous drop after that. Since I didn’t intend to actually swim, I didn’t want to get in over my head, so when my shoulders were underwater, I stopped and tried to find solid enuf footing in the irregular rocks and sloping slippery silt beneath me. I was more or less successful in this, but I was constantly shifting my feet just to stay in place.

And then I just stood there. My semi-buoyant arms floated a few inches below the surface. My loose shirt billowed about me. And every time I moved my feet, more trapped gas from the silt below slithered up my skin. I watched the shoreline (with my uncorrected vision), and gazed at the blue vault above me. I listened to the frogs. And I was buzzed constantly by literally hundreds of blue and orange dragonflies.

I stayed this way for most of an hour, only moving to reset my feet and occasionally look toward the dam, though that was also toward the sun. A plane buzzed overhead. A turkey vulture circled lazily. The forest chirred. My mind drifted. I thought about venturing along the shore to other parts of the lake, but I didn’t. I just relaxed where I was and for the time I was the only person in the universe.

Eventually I decided that I had defied the amoebas enuf and decided to get out. This was not easy. Not only did I have to reacquaint myself with the force of gravity, but the Crocs were wet and filled with silt. The lake bottom wanted to suck them off my feet and one time did. I learned that Crocs do float, which is handy. Getting out of the water was one thing; I still had to get up the hill to the cabin (where there was a flat floor and dry clothes). I stumbled up, sometimes throwing my body in whatever direction my slippery Crocs decided. But I made it to the cabin and peeled off the wet things.

I stood on the porch much as I looked on the day I was born and used the towel I had found in a cabinet to dry myself. What I quickly learned was that much of the silt in the lake had clung to my body and was streaking the white towel. One of the advantages of a late-in-the-visit swim is that I can wash off most/many/some of the ticks and chiggers, but I clearly wasn’t washing away any dirt. No matter. I would shower at home.

Sufficiently dry, I pulled on my second set of clothes (always prudent for a spring/summer/fall visit in the Ozark forest) and packed my truck. My last deed was to set a fresh mouse trap. Swiss cheese had worked before, but this time I tried cheddar. I’ll let you know the results.

And then it was home to let the dogs out, do some laundry, take a shower, and relax from my day of relaxation.

Also, here’s a different kind of round rock I found out at my place:

*Anyone want to fight with me about this? I think most sticklers would say that the proper spelling in this usage is “handsful” but I disagree. I think with units of measurement like this “handfuls” is better.


the latest from Roundrock

May 21, 2018

I managed to get myself (and my dog) down to Roundrock between violent storms last weekend. I’d actually skipped out of work early on Friday, spent a little time packing Prolechariot (my truck) and then trying to sneak off without Flike (my dog) knowing. But somehow he discovered what I was doing and whined to his mother, and soon he was in the truck with me, burning up the highway betwixt here and there.

If I think I’m going to be visiting my woods in a coming weekend, I tend to study the weather maps throughout the week, watching as the forecasts change and get refined. If the reports were true, then my little bit of forest on the edge of the Missouri Ozarks had received rain all week. This was good since I had more old wooden fence to burn in the fire ring. Friday evening was my window of opportunity. (As I was loading the rotten fence bits into the bed of my truck I was amazed at how much work I had actually gotten done in my last fit of motivation. No wonder I’ve not been motivated at all since!) I much prefer having large campfires when the woods are wet.

The last few hundred feet of road leading to my cabin goes through the middle of my woods, and first I can see the green roof of the cabin between the trees, then I can see the lake. Ever since I’ve had the lake I’ve worried that I would come out and find it missing. (This came close to happening a couple of times!) I worry that the heavy spring rains will fill the lake so that it overcomes the overflow drain and the two spillways and washes over the top of the dam itself. If the dam began eroding, it would likely continue until the lake behind it was drained. That hasn’t happened yet (though, as I said, it came close twice), but I still peer through the trees every single time I drive down that last bit of road to my cabin.

As it was when I visited on Friday, the lake was about three feet below full pool. That’s fine with me. That gives it capacity to absorb more spring rain without using the drain or spillways. (The lake was built in a gravel-filled valley. Plenty of water leaks underneath the dam — and through it in some places — so even when it’s full, water is bleeding away from it.) I took the picture above from the top of the dam, looking west. It’s always a pretty sight. Flike wasn’t too interested though.

Here is the view from the front porch of my little cabin. I spent my first hour or so there on Friday just sitting in a chair and taking in this view:

The light-colored bit of shoreline you see in both photos is the same spot.

I may have mentioned that a phoebe has built a nest on the wall of the cabin under the porch ceiling. I checked it when I arrived and found five baby phoebes huddled in it, and during my hour of decompression, mama phoebe was scolding me from the trees nearby by to get lost.

My plan for the weekend was to burn a lot of stuff on Friday (though preferably not my hamburgers) and on Saturday to take my awesome weed whacker into the acre below the dam where I have a hapless plantation of pecan trees. I want to clean out some of the scrub growing in there that is beginning to look like trees as well. Wading into the tall grass and scrub to do this work would, inevitably, cover my body with ticks and chiggers, so my plan after that was to take a dip in the lake to wash off as much of that infestation as I could. But as I think I’ve said before, nature always wins.

Friday came together just as I planned. I made a one-match fire (it’s all in the tinder — this time I used a year 2000 paper map of some place called Iowa) and was soon tossing rotten fence pickets onto it. They are made of cedar, so they popped and sizzled as they burned. They gave a lovely light, as the poet said, but I began to have misgivings about burning the fence. To me, a campfire is a place for quiet reflection not a place for disposing of trash. I much prefer burning oak logs I have cut and split myself than trash I’ve hauled 100+ miles. So I’ve decided that I’m not going to bring any more ex-fence to the cabin for burning. (I still have at least two fires worth of fence parts already down there.) I cooked my burgers and gave half of them to Flike, and I waited as I always do to hear a whippoorwill. I didn’t hear one. I understand that they are in decline in their natural range, and I think it has to do with habitat destructions. I try to maintain my forest as much of a wild place as I can, and I want to think that a whippoorwill will find it a favorable place to live and raise a family.

I did manage to burn up what I think are the last of my grad school spiral notebooks.

How long ago had I scribbled in those pages? And never opened them once since then! Simplify, as Mr. Thoreau says.

I stopped stoking the fire after I’d burned up about half of what I had hauled down that day and let it smolder into ash, then I retired, heading in to the cabin for a restless night with Flike burrowed against me, panting with anxiety because despite how much he thinks he wants to go to the woods, he always hates it. (He’s afraid of flies and thunder and it turned out we had an abundance of each over the weekend.) So Flike, probably more covered with ticks and chiggers than I was, nestled very close to me on the bed and panted. He was in high anxiety mode. I told him to stop panting a number of times, which he did, until he didn’t any longer. I saw a long night ahead of me, but then a bit of redemption came. Outside the cabin, through the open windows, from what sounded like a tree directly above me, a whippoorwill began her repetitive call. I stopped counting the iterations when I got into the thirties, but she stopped as well and then returned once more a little later. So I got my simple desire after all.

I slept until I woke, well after sun up, which is rare for me. Flike must have gotten the message because he had moved himself to the rug on the floor beside the bed and didn’t pester me with his frantic panting. Before I rose from the soft mattress, though, the whippoorwill gave me one more serenade.

When I’m staying at the cabin on my own (wifeless, that is), I rarely cook myself a hot breakfast. (I make do with bagels or beef jerky or such.) But on this Saturday morning, I did. I set up the propane stove out of the porch and heated enuf water for two bowls of instant oatmeal. Nothing fancy, certainly, and hardly even cooking, but along with a banana and plenty of iced tea (unsweetened, of course), it was satisfying. As I was puttering about with this work, I could hear rumbling in the southeast. The sky was blue that I could see through the trees, so I wasn’t sure what I was hearing. There is an Air Force base within a hundred miles, but that is to the northeast. And there are some two-lane highways far beyond my southern ridge. But neither of these explanations seemed sufficient. Nor did I think the normal doings of the cattle ranch in that direction would be so noisy. As time passed, the rumbling didn’t. In fact, it grew more well defined. It was definitely thunder I was hearing, and as I glanced up through the trees again I saw that what I took for blue sky before was actually unbroken blue gray cloud.

Flike hates thunder, and he was soon back in the cabin, under the bed, panting frantically. There wasn’t anything I could do for him, so I just watched and waited. The thunder was almost continuous, and I realized that the good people to my southeast were getting a wicked storm. But the thunder was getting louder, the sky was getting darker, and the temperature was actually falling. It looked like I was going to see the storm next. (Also, a curious thing: when I arrived the night before the lake water was a monochrome brown, which it generally is after a storm since it plenty of mud and leaf matter has washed into it. My guess is that as the storm approached, the barometric pressure dropped because soon I was seeing the green mats of algae floating in the lake. I guess somehow they felt free to rise to the surface with their load of brain-eating amoebas given the change in pressure.)

So the stars were not aligning for me. While I could certainly weed whack in the rain and thunder, it wouldn’t be fair to Flike to make him suffer through it locked in the cabin (or in my truck). With the temperature falling as it was, I didn’t see myself getting in the lake that day at all. (It was in the 60s then.) And on top of that, there are three seasonal streams I have to cross to drive out of my woods and reach pavement. Two were dry when I came in the day before, but they have hundred-acre watersheds (each) and if I waited for the storm to hit, it was possible I couldn’t get across them if they were torrents. (This has happened, though I was coming from the other direction at the time.) So with all of those consideration, I began to pack up camp and prepared to go home early. Flike eagerly jumped into the truck when I made the offer and graciously let me pack up and clean up. As it was, I left the mouse trap baited but unset, so when I return next time I should find the cheese missing and the mouse laughing. I also left a small bag I use to carry things back and forth for cabin life. That was no big problem, but still.

I drove home in the downpour. For most of an hour I had the wipers on their fastest speed and my truck at a much slower speed. Fortunately, most of the good people in that part of rural Missouri had sense enuf to stay out of the rain, so the road was all mine.

On Sunday, the county where my cabin is issued a flash flood warming. It seems I skedaddled in time.

So I’m not sure when I’ll get back again. This weekend has possibilities.

two days in the woods

May 1, 2018

On the last weekend of April I made my first visit of the month to Roundrock. The weather wasn’t very cooperative through the month, and with my wife away in Seattle for two of those weeks, I had chores and other things keeping me bound at home. But the stars aligned and I was able to dash down to my woods on Friday afternoon (with my dog, Flike) for an overnight. I managed to get some chores done but my big ambition, to wreak some havoc among the pecan trees with my industrial strength weed whacker, didn’t happen. I had left the gasoline for it at home.

Still, I managed to occupy my time. Back home in faraway suburbia I have been regularly repairing and replacing parts of the wooden fence that has surrounded my back yard for three decades. It rots. The neighbor dogs eat it. (Really!) The wind worries it. And so when time, resources, and gumption are all in one place at the same time, I repair or replace this part or that, going for the most grievous dilapidation generally. (I think over the decades I’ve replaced nearly all of it, which leads me to ask if it is still the same fence or if I have my own version of Theseus’s Paradox.) Then I collect the rotten pickets and braces and drag them down to my Ozark cabin to add to the campfire. You can see some of the fence parts in the fire in the photo above.

This was a one-match fire (unlike my last attempt with wet wood), and the trick to a one-match fire, as everyone knows, is the amount of tinder you use. Lots, mostly. We will collect scraps of burnable paper as we’re puttering about the cabin to use as tinder for our next fire, but on my most recent visit I used something unprecedented. I used old paper road maps that have been sitting in the door pocket of my truck for years and years. Who needs paper maps anymore, right? And I can testify that they make excellent tinder. The pickets are made a cedar and as they burned, they snapped and popped. The oak logs I normally burn aren’t as noisy.

As I was standing around the fire, adding fence parts slowly, I heard a commotion down near the lake and looked up at just the right time to see a large bird fly across the lake and alight in a tree down the hill from the cabin. The branch it alit on broke under its weight and the bird flapped about for a while before settling on a larger branch of the tree. I had to peer at it through the trees (since I didn’t want to scare it off by approaching for a better view) and I could see that it was dark brown with what looked like a white head. I have seen bald eagles high in the sky over my woods, but I had never seen one in one of my trees before.

And I hadn’t this time either. As I watched, the bird took off again and flew in a large circle over the lake. From this I could seen that its underside was white, which meant it was not a bald eagle. Later, when I retired to the cabin for the evening, I took down one of the several bird guides we have on the shelf there and by lantern light determined that what I saw was an osprey. With the massive Corps of Engineers lake to my north, it is not unlikely to see an osprey in the area, but I always assumed my lake was too small to interest them. Perhaps not having any humans around my lake for a month made the area appealing to one, though if so I guess I jinxed that with my visit. Still, it was nice to see such a big bird at my cabin, just as it was nice to hear honking geese splash down on my lake after dark.

Had I remembered the gasoline, I would have ventured into the tall grass in my pecan plantation (twelve trees are all that are left of the hundred I had planted years ago) to clean up woody scrub and such. But since I couldn’t do that, I didn’t want to wade into the grass or scrub at all since tick season has begun in the Ozarks. On Saturday morning (when I rose after sleeping eleven hours!), I kept myself around the cabin doing what chores I could there. I did more backfill behind the new-ish retaining wall, and I used some repurposed cottage blocks to extend the retaining wall behind the cabin. And I did a very thorough sweeping inside the cabin. Every spring we have a hatch of lady bugs and paper wasps inside the cabin. It’s not much of a nuisance, but if they can’t get out of the cabin (say, for example, the door is kept shut for a month straight), then they expire. And so the floor was littered with their corpses. I pushed the broom around, poking into corners and under things, and I shoved the little carpet sweeper on the braided rug (rescued from my mother’s house when she was moving to Kentucky). Flike was not much help with this work, but I managed to get the job done pretty well.

And then, since grandson Emmett was due at my house in faraway suburbia that afternoon, I packed up the truck and pointed it in the direction of home. I’m not sure when I’ll get back down to my cabin again, but I’ll watch for my chance.

meanwhile, at Roundrock

March 28, 2018

It hasn’t been all writing fun and games for me. I have also been visiting my Ozark acres and little cabin in the woods. I was there two weekends ago for an overnight that involved having a large fire to burn more junk as well as to do battle with the blackberries and chores around the cabin.

I’ve told my wife that when we retire, I no longer want to have a yard to care for or gutters to clean or all of that suburban nonsense that we endured in order to have a nice place to raise our children. (And now that we have two dogs, we’re pretty much still raising children.) I can see myself in some two-bedroom urban condo, a floor or two above the street, maybe with a nice view of the downtown and no lawn to mow or neighbors to “keep up with.” (I’ve never been a joiner or one to want to fit in especially, but I also recognize that if you live in a community — even vanilla suburbia — you live with a community and there are certain minimum appearances — like a mostly green lawn — that must be maintained for the good of civilization.)

And all of that is a way to say that though I may yet realize this ambition, having 80 acres of Ozark forest with a small cabin and a lake that leaks is pretty much taking my suburban woes and multiplying them. My yard is 80 acres! And each visit to Roundrock* means chores and chores and chores to be done!

On this most recent visit my main chore (after doing battle with the blackberries among my pine trees) was to set up a new place to stack the firewood I cut. Several “problems” aligned in this latest project, and it was mostly the delivery of the load of gravel (recounted here) plus overcoming inertia that allowed me to address them.

I’ve been maintaining and expanding the graveled area around my cabin not merely to have a tick-and-chigger-free space there to move around in but also to keep a buffer between the wooden cabin and any ground fire that may sweep through the forest. (Ground fires are not uncommon in the Ozarks, though there has been only one during my tenure and it didn’t get close to the cabin, and they’re mostly considered benign as long as they stay on the ground and don’t get into the tree tops.) By having an area that is not combustible, I feel that I am performing my due diligence (so that the insurance man won’t reject my claim should I need to rebuild the cabin).

A fact of life about any forest is that leaves will fall from the trees. And then they accumulate, often just where you don’t want them. (One of those places is the north side of my cabin, and raking leaves from there is a year-round chore for me.) The past structure I had for my firewood was too low to the ground. It allowed leaves to pile up against it. Not only was this a potential fire hazard, but it provided haven for all sorts of vermin I might not want too close to the cabin, and it allowed any rain that fell on the firewood to keep the wood damp since the leaves prevented normal evaporation. (Same three points regarding the leaves against the cabin.) So my hope was to create a new place to stack the firewood that would be raised sufficiently to allow the wood to stay mostly dry and to allow any blowing leaves to pass under on their way elsewhere.

Another chore of mine through the years has been to build a retaining wall in front of my cabin. I did this originally because I worried that the cabin was perched on a hill too steep for the good of the concrete floor/foundation. So I got several pallets of cottage blocks over the years and built my wall to shore up the cabin. (I backfilled the wall with very good soil so that I could have a garden of red flowers in front of the cabin to attract hummingbirds. Nature had other plans!) But this wall has continued to the east, toward the area where the fire ring and its attending wood pile is. Part of this extension was not only to satisfy my human need to impose order on chaos but also to ensure that not all of the gravel I (and others) laid down would wash down the hill.

This wall extension needed to be higher than the current level of the gravel since I intended to lay more until it and the gravel bed were level, thus allowing blowing leaves to keep moving and not collect. And then I got the gravel delivery two days before Christmas last year, and my excellent son-in-law shifted about a third of the delivery to its new location against the wall, but the woodpile area remained untouched.

And so this story finally comes round to my visit two weekends ago. I had my wall of cottage blocks. I had my pile of gravel. I had weather that was just slightly chilly, which is ideal for running and manual labor. I had a full day before me. And I had that rarest of things in my life: actual motivation!

The first task was to move the too-low-to-the-ground current wood pile and disassemble the existing “rack” I had built for it. Much of the wood, it turned out, literally crumbled in my (gloved) hands because it was so rotten (from being constantly moist). The former rack consisted of several bricks with an old hickory wheel barrow handle and a thick cedar plank stretched across them. Once I had those out of the way I could begin my real work.

First I raked the area clean of the collected bits of bark and forest debris and whatever might be living in it. This all went over the side of the wall (being only two blocks high). Then I began moving fresh gravel into place. I estimate that I shifted twenty wheel barrow loads of gravel into an area maybe fifteen feet long. It’s not hard work while you’re doing it, but you remember doing it the next day. Then I needed to level the twenty piles of gravel, grading them to the top of the wall. Easy enuf work as well. So the prep work was done.

Many years ago, a friend was making an addition to his house and had many paving blocks and bricks he wanted to get rid of. He offered them to me and I hurried to his house with my eldest boy to stack them all in the bed of my truck. I don’t know how long I drove around town with that weight in my truck before I got to visit my woods, but as I remember, it was a couple of weeks. When I did get down there, I unloaded the blocks and bricks and stacked them beside a tree where they would be handy when I finally found a use for them. They turned out to be a fine place for two forest creatures to call home: black widow spiders and scorpions. (Yes, I saw the scorpions with my own eyes. Black things with yellow chevrons. I’ve never found their match in any critter guidebooks.)

Eventually the blocks became my original fire ring. They served there well for many years until I got my latest load of cottage blocks and built a new fire ring. So the old paver blocks were stacked neatly near the new wall, waiting their next role in life. It happened that I had eighteen of them. I thought that if I stacked them three high and stretched steel bars across them, they would be high enuf to allow blowing leaves to pass through and strong enuf to hold firewood. The trouble was finding steel bars that were long enuf to do the job. (The steel fence posts I have all over the place are only about six feet tall.)

When we had bought the land (how long ago? I would have to look it up to know), the realtor said that our particular 80 acres had been leased to the Have to Hunt Club. (There was even some signage left of their tenure.) In addition to the lake that we added, there is a small pond on the property, and this is a game magnet, especially favorable to deer hunters. Near the pond was an old blind up in a tree. (It would be a tree fort if you were a child.) The tree was dying. The blind was rotting, and the whole thing was going to fall soon, possibly across my road in. But one solid piece of the blind was the ladder leading up to it. When the blind finally fell after a strong storm (not across my road in) I collected the planks and parts as well as the ladder, which I just knew I would have a use for someday. Many of the rotten planks and parts went into the fire, and now they exist as the ash that is rising there. Some of the planks I use to weigh down a tarp I spread over parts of my graveled area to kill the upstart weeds. But the ladder just rested against a tree for years, awaiting its new life.

And because I could not find the steel bars I wanted, I realized one day that the ladder (made of good quality, treated lumber it seems) would serve just as well. I carried the ladder to the area I had added the latest gravel to so I had sense of how long my new wood rack would be. Then I spaced the old blocks along it to make six stacks of three blocks apiece; the eighteen blocks divided so nicely it seemed meant to be. After a bit of leveling, the old ladder rested evenly on the blocks, and you can see the result here:

There are a number of things to say about this photo. First, the lighter colored gravel is the new stuff I laid down. (Farther up in the photo is the gravel my excellent son-in-law laid down in December.) To the right along the edge of the photo is the older gravel. It’s darker for several reason: it likely came for a different part of the quarry and it’s been in the weather for a decade at least. In fact, after the oak trees release their pollen, everything has an orange tint, including this white gravel. It’s hard to tell from this photo, but the lighter gravel is higher than the darker gravel. I need to spread more gravel there to even out the two, the darker gravel being on ground that rises up the slight hill on the right.

You can also see some of the retaining wall at the top of the photo. That’s the old part. The cabin is to the right of this old part. It happens that the new part aligns exactly with the left side of the old ladder; it’s there, just under it.

You can also glimpse the lake through the trees on the right. When we visited, we were delighted to see it as full as it was. (About four feet below full pool.) I watch the weather in the area, and I hadn’t thought there had been enuf rain to fill the lake this much, especially as dry as the forest has been in recent months. Much of this will leak out under the dam, but spring rains will also fill it. (The night we spent there, nine Canada geese circled the lake a few times then splashed onto the water. They spent the night. Keep in mind these were not golf course geese accustomed to humans. These were truly wild ones, and it warmed my black and shriveled heart to think my attempt at stewardship was working.)

I don’t think I’ll ever cut enuf firewood to fill this rack. I’m not sure I’d ever want to have a need for that much. But I have capacity now, and I hope it works as intended to prevent leaves from accumulating.

I still have most of the pile of gravel; I don’t think my son-in-law and I have moved half of it yet. But as I said, there are areas I need to bring to even grade, and it would be nice to have an actual level area near the fire ring so we could put a table there that doesn’t cant down hill and let dinner slide off.


*Roundrock is the name I’ve given to my property because of the obvious reason that it is filled with round rocks. I realize naming property is a bit pretentious, but I tired of referring to it as “the land” since that was vague.

Roundrock reckoning

January 25, 2018

I keep a calendar on the wall of my little cabin and mark on it each time I make a visit. Then, in January, I switch it for the new calendar and take the old one home to do a reckoning of my visits. Here is how 2017 went down:

January – I started the new year off right by going down to the cabin on the first and staying the night, so that counted as two days of visits. But then I managed to go down on the twenty-first and stay the night again. Four days of visiting. Pretty good.

February – Sadly, I only made it down there one time, a Saturday, for a day visit. Not sure what was going on that month, though wicked weather seems the most likely explanation.

March – I managed a visit on Saturday, the fourth, and then went again on the 18th, staying the night. So I’m calling that three days of visits.

April – Two visits in April, but on successive Saturdays. (Not sure “successive Saturdays” is logically correct. Only one of them could be successive, right? Sequential, maybe?)

May – I made a day trip on Sunday, the seventh and then an overnight on Sunday and Monday, the 28th and 29th (Memorial Day).

June – One overnight visit, on the 10th and 11th, so two days of visiting. Seems like I should have gotten down there more.

July – This month gave me two visits. One on Saturday the eighth (a full moon, though I didn’t stay the night) and on the last Sunday of the month.

August – Just one trip, on Saturday the nineteenth. Miserably hot that month no doubt.

September – I had an overnight early in the month and then returned for a day trip near the end of the month. Fall is my favorite season in the woods.

October – Another two-visit month, first on the fourteenth and then on the 29th. Not sure why I didn’t manage an overnight.

November – Sadly, I didn’t make a trip at all this month. I remember I spent a long weekend in Kentucky then, and a week long trip to Seattle for Thanksgiving, so I guess I couldn’t find any chance to get to my woods.

December – The first weekend was an overnight trip (where I’m sure I burned something or other) and the second was on a Wednesday, which I recounted in this post.


So I think I told you that among my other afflictions, I have a mild case of synesthesia. I know what color each letter of the alphabet is, and I know the shape of most sounds. (Imagine seeing the music of a symphony!) My older brother has it too, but when we were comparing notes one day we realized that not everyone is like us.

Anyway, I colored the names of each month based on the colors they are in my mind (mostly based on the first letter). October is actually a white word, but that wouldn’t show up against the white background so I left it black. Curiously, I had also done this last year when I made my reckoning, and the colors turned out pretty consistent. Paul is a blue word, and Lamb is a white word, though that letter “m” in it makes it want to be red.

As afflictions go, it’s not so bad.


The photo above is of a round rock sitting in the negative space of another, larger round rock that I had pried from the ground. The smaller rock is about the size of a baseball, which makes the larger rock about the size of a basketball. I have it around here somewhere.



sonder, out yonder

January 17, 2018

I once found a stubbed-out cigarette on one of the blocks of the retaining wall behind my cabin.

My first reaction was alarm. The back of the cabin is where dried out fallen leaves collect against the wooden wall. Cigarettes require a flame and themselves burn. But it seemed that the smoker was fastidious about his habit (I assume it was a “he” though I have no reason to think that) and snuffed it safely, though packing out his trash was apparently beyond the range of his perceived responsibilities.

But after my initial alarm, I began to imagine my interloper and his visit. Had he arrived by car or had he walked the considerable distance from anywhere to reach my end-of-the-road little cabin? Did he come down my road or hike cross country? Did he walk around the cabin and appreciate the setting? Or did he sit on the retaining wall as he enjoyed his cigarette? If so, why at the back of the cabin and not on the porch where he could look down on the glinting lake? Though perhaps he started there and merely sauntered. Did he try the door to see if it was open? Peer in the windows? Did he sit in one of the chairs? On the porch or around the fire ring? Did he heft the round rocks all around? Did he come with intent, to see the cabin in its place? Had he heard of it? Or was he just wandering the woods that day and come upon it? How long did he stay? And what did he think while he was there? Did he imagine for the time that the place was his own? Imagine throwing a line in the water? Throwing a steak on the grill? Telling stories around a fire? Or did he scoff at its humble setting? What was his name? Was he tired when he arrived and rested when he left? Was he alone? Did he meet someone there? Has he ever been back? Does this happen often?

I sometimes find the spoor of interlopers in my woods: beer cans, candy wrappers, footprints, emptied shotgun shells. Once, a horse shoe.

I have no illusions about the concept of private property, especially in isolated places infrequently visited. I also think it’s presumptuous in a way to think of “owning” a piece of land, at least on the time scale of land. I sometimes think of myself as more of a tenant of the 80 acres than an owner. A caretaker, maybe. A steward. Transitory. I can point to my influences, the changes I’ve made, both successful and not, and speak of the emotional connection I have to the place. But in a century, my connection won’t really be known to the next tenant in the woods. It seems unlikely that anyone will ponder who I was in my time and tenancy.

Maybe that’s why I write stories. To live beyond myself.

a matter of perspective

December 11, 2017

In my old blog, Roundrock Journal, I had kept a lexicon of words and phrases I used regularly that I thought readers might appreciate understanding a bit more deeply. “Tawny tussocks” for example was not an exotic dancer but a reference to little bluestem grass. “Loathsome goo” was the muck and mire at the bottom of the pond, in which I had once sunk to my thighs when I had dared to venture in there, nearly losing my shoes as I tried to extract myself.

I had also defined the distinction between “critters” and “varmints.” “Critters” were any kind of naturally occurring wildlife, looked on benignly by me. “Varmints” were critters that had gone bad, making some affront to my presumed mastery over the place. The mice that had found their way into the cabin recently were varmints.

On our trip to the woods two weekends ago, we saw more evidence of varmints. Above is the only survivor of ten shortleaf pine trees I had planted on one of the islands in the lake. (That it is rarely an island because the lake is generally too low is beside the point; the definition stands!). I had raised a chicken-wire fence around the trees — about four feet tall — and visited them regularly to do what I could to nurture them (not much). Because they had to rely on the rain to be watered and whatever nutrients might be in the rocky soil of the island, their chances had never been good, and that one of them survived at all and even thrived was a kind of validation to me.

But you see it above. It’s been vandalized. Some buck deer needed to rub the velvet off his antlers, and rather than use any of the thousands of cedar trees nearby, he apparently jumped the fence into the smallish enclosure and ravaged my pine. Those green things you see on the ground are its lower branches. Varmint!

The bark has been stripped away but this, apparently, is not a threat to the tree. Several of the pines in the plantation suffered this similar abuse and have grown into tall trees.

We repaired the fence as much as we could and continued on our hike.

And I suppose the forest could consider me a varmint. See the evidence here:

There are many trees in my forest like this. I have wedged a round rock or two into their clefts and left them there. Sometimes I find the rocks dislodged, presumably from windy days that make the trunks sway and separate. But there are others where the rocks remain, and one of them now has three rocks wedge into it, the first being nearly completely swallowed by the growing tree.